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Afraid of Living
I am afraid of living
I am lonely
living a life under the thumb of a narcissist is when I learned
how to turn the anger into lonely,
the lonely into busy
so when I tell you I’ve been super busy lately,
when I haven’t been working my two jobs
and taking care of my family
it means I’ve been falling asleep
anytime I sit down on my couch
watching mindless tv
to avoid confronting the empty side of my bed
people still don’t understand
how can I put on the bright shiny smile
yet be so dark in my soul
can’t you see?
neither can I
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Deserve Better
You told me I come across as clingy
WTF do you mean clingy...
there is a difference
between being clingy
and putting forth effort
so I backed off
stopped putting forth the effort
and you came following
flirting and talking
from me it was clingy but not from you??
you were ready to put your ex behind you
but not quite ready for a relationship
so I agreed let's keep it light
and I made you feel good
so much better about yourself
I showed you what you deserved
how a man should be treated
gave you respect
the physical attention you craved
with no pressure or expectations
and what did it get me
I began feeling affection
and still had no expectations
just spend some time with me
and talk to me
your ex crooked her little finger
said I want you back
you tossed me aside
went sprinting back to her
I smiled and said I am happy for you
So I am sad and lonely again
and when she proves she hasn't changed
will you come back telling me I was right
will you come back to me finally
knowing I was "the be
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Picnic in the park :iconakdamselindistress:AKDamselinDistress 0 0
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with you and only you
your touch at night
your voice in the morning
a future together
where we are happy
loving with everything we've got
for every day we have left
a love like no other
with lust for one another
can i have all of this
with you and only you?
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When I think of you
When I think of you
A smile crosses my lips
When I think of you
My heart beats a little faster
When I think of you
My body can’t help but react
When I see your face
I can’t help but remember
When I kiss your lips
The memories come faster
When I touch your body
The sensations overwhelm
When we come together
The world ceases to exist
While we are together
All others fade away
Time and space
It’s only you and I
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wine
nothing like a good glass of wine
to take away the pain
and wash away the tears
make me forget my all of my fears
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thoughts
Why do I feel like a girl stuck in her teens
instead of the confident woman
I know that I am?
Thoughts of him meander in my mind
walking the same pathways over and over
wearing deep grooves from the repetitiveness
Does he love me?
Does he think about me?
Will we be?
I know what I want
I know what I need
I was counting on it being with him
I wonder are his thoughts of me
like a walk on the beach
a quick breeze blowing away any trace of me
I need to sweep away my own doubts
if he doesn't think and wonder
then he is not worthy of someone like me
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waking up alone
you were the last thought in my head
and the first thought on my mind
when I wake up in the morning
in my bed alone
I reach for my phone
hoping just to find
a message to let me know
you thought about me too
and day after day
I end up disappointed
this long distance relationship
is killing me inside
I am out of your sight
and is seems out of your mind
I just hope that like me
you are waking up alone
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The Best Story Ever Written....Is Yours
Once upon a time...
...and (s)he lived happily ever after.
Its your story, write it so the ending fits.
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D
the difference one letter makes
the melancholy behind one letter
it takes the future and makes it past
turns happiness into sadness
I love him is a happy thought
I loved him means he is lost
I live a good life is living in the present
I lived a good life is giving up
trying to not let that single letter
tear my heart apart
cannot let that single letter
ruin the life I have built
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quicksand of my conscience
you never cross my mind anymore
thoughts of you are mired
in the quicksand of my conscience
I try to distract my brain
listening to music
reading inspirational thoughts
everything reminds me of you
happy thoughts and sad musings
breach the walls I am trying to build
to hold in my emotions
the tears that trail down my cheeks
the love in my heart
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Heartbreak
I take a deep breath
and let out a long sigh
the pounding in my chest
my heart pleading for more
more time, more love
I feel so lonely and tired
holding back what I truly feel
longing to have you to hold
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confused
I'm on the edge and falling
will I take flight
or crash and burn
my spririt is soaring
my heart is plummeting
which one do I follow
I am so confused
I don't know what to believe
are my eyes even seeing
what is it I'm feeling
disappointment and fear
or anticipation of love
the future is unclear
like a fogged up mirror
I can't wipe clean
I want to see you
I want more than anything
to see you with me
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melancholy
a shadow passes over my thoughts
and it leaves me unsettled
I can't pinpoint what it is
that makes me melancholy
I know I am missing my love
absence makes the heart grow fonder
but the distance causes my heart pain
I feel I might be out of sight out of mind
is this the reason for my melancholy
this shadow over my spirit
its time to lower my expectations
and protect my fragile heart
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rearview of my life
I should know who I am by now
I remember who I used to be
and I don't like what I see
in the rearview of my life
I lived how I did
because it was all that I knew
the baggage of my life
didn't seem so heavy then
my childhood wasn't that bad
or maybe it really was
it was what I knew
I became comfortable with the pain
I found what I wasn't looking for
I thought I found the man
who would take care of me
not make me insane
a quarter century later
on the verge of losing it
I was finally asked the question
that made me change my mind
why did I stay
in that situation like I was
that question helped me decide
it was time to move on
and now I like myself
I am still learning who I am
the future is looking bright
and in it I see you and me
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How am I supposed to control my breathing when every time I inhale I am assailed by the sweet scent of your hair?
How can I refrain from kissing your neck when my lips are but a centimetre away from it?
How can I hide it when my eyes betray my desire?
How do I keep my hands off your skin when only the thin fabric of your t-shirt is standing in my way?
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I'm Done
Crying tears falling from my eyes.
You take what Little I have.
But you can't see the pain you're causing me.
Eyes burning fingers sore.
I take this much more.
You break my heart.
You tare it in two.
Does this matter to you?
You say you're sorry.
This doesn't take any pain away,
But I smile and pretend everything is okay.
You're perfect when things go your way.
But on the days things change.
I don't want to be in your way.
You can't control what I do and say.
I'm me you can never make me change.
You break my heart.
You tare it in two.
Does this matter to you?
You say you're sorry.
This doesn't take any pain away,
But I smile and pretend everything is okay.
I love you.
You say that you love me too.
But I don't think I can trust you.
So shape up or lose.
That's all I've got to say.
You break my heart.
You tare it in two.
I know this doesn't matter to you.
You said you're sorry.
That never took any pain away.
And I'm still just smiling as I try to push you away.
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Hate
Don't say not to hate
When hate is nothing but the reverse of love
An extreme
A boundary breaker
They are the two faces of a single coin
Unable to exist without the other
So don't love people who don't hate
Live in your bland, mediocre feelings
Never experience the most pure of emotions
The most beautiful form of feelings
They are terrifying; these two words
Able to rip you to shreds
Or piece you back together
That is what hate is to me
The harmony to my love
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I Love You More
At the beginning and start of each new day,
I find myself always thinking of you...
Even when I'm in the middle of a busy day,
I'll find my mind wandering and thinking of you...
Even when I can't see your smile or hear your laugh,
Deep inside I do,
And I think of you...
Life is so much better now,
Because each and every time I think of you,
I fall in love all over again...
This unbelievable love that we feel for eachother,
Makes it so hard to ever be apart...
So when I can't hold you in my arms,
I hold you in my heart...
You ask me to tell you how much I love you,
And I have no idea where to begin...
The feelings I have so deep in my heart,
So powerful that they overwhelm my every thought...
You ask me to tell you how much I love you,
And I just wish you could see into my soul...
And how everytime I'm without you,
It's like I've fallen into a hole...
I love looking into your eyes,
Everytime I do I get lost,
I can't help but look...
I love seeing you smile,
It's like the sun is shinning
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Escape
I'm trying to escape,
trying to get away,
trying to ignore what they do,
forget about what they say.
No move I ever make,
can ever be one right,
every simple thing I say,
always starts a fight.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
the way I'm supposed to be,
the thing is your slowly killing me,
why can't you see?
I'd really like to run away,
where someone would understand,
to someone who could see my pain,
and gently take my hand.
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Love it
I feel your hands in my hair.
I feel your breath on my neck.
I feel your body pressed so close to mine.
I feel your lips on my throat.
I feel your hands move to my back and your lips work their way up to mine.
I feel you and I love it.
I hear you say you love me.
I hear you whisper my name.
I hear you tell me I'm the only one for you.
I hear your breath in my ear.
I hear your soft snores as I fall asleep.
I hear you and I love it.
I see you as I run into your arms.
I see your face break through my world of darkness.
I see you fight away my fears.
I see you wipe away my tears.
I see you're in love with me.
I see you and I love it.
I taste your lips.
I taste your tongue.
I taste your throat as I kiss it.
I taste your love.
I taste your passion.
I taste you and I love it.
I smell your colone as I hold you.
I smell your shampoo as I hug you.
I smell your toothpaste as I kiss you.
I smell your excitement as you cuddle me.
I smell the smell I've been waiting so long to smell.
I smell you and
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AKDamselinDistress
Alaskan Damsel
Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
United States
I am a fiesty redhead who is enjoying the time, energy and support I need to do what I love. I picked up a pen again after many years of not putting anything down on paper.

My writing is part therapy, part a need to get rid of thoughts in my head, part letting others know how I feel. I really would like to know if what I write strikes a chord.

If any of these musings remind you of someone - great!! But know this when I write the feelings and emotions are a melding of the men, women, and children who have touched my life. There is never one single person in my thoughts.

Current Residence: Alaska
Favourite genre of music: country mainly but will listen to just about anything
Personal Quote: I take full responsibility for my own thoughts. how you interpret what you read is your business.
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its all in how you ask for a favor....LOL

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 29, 2010, 1:17 PM
Skin by NorthBlue
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So I get an email from a friend in another dept that begins Ma'am....I send back reply of you lost me at Ma'am...so he starts the request again this time with....and I demand all of you begin using this title immediately....Smoking Hot Red-Headed Puma...:lol:

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Laker80 Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
I received a notice from that " e" company and did a search to find you since your not a paying member which is smart since anyone really interested or with half a brain could search and look you up from your clues LOL. Check out my page [link]
I don't have your gift with words but you can find me through the page..........
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AKDamselinDistress Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the note...I am trying to make the decision if I want to join eHarmony. I was on Match for 6 months and got very discouraged. Makes me think that maybe I am not ready for anything serious. I am enjoying meeting new people and for now that is enough.
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TehYawn Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
I absolutely love your work! keep up the amazing job
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Torrent-Demonz Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2010
Thx for the Fav! [link] :w00t:
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NaiomiYanks Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2010
Thank you for the fave! And the piece you wrote is really nice :>
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xXAndiLXx Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2010  Student Traditional Artist
thanks :)
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AKDamselinDistress Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
no thanks needed - it is a georgeous piece of artwork
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SunshyneRaynbow Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2010  Professional Writer
Thanks for the favorite! i appreciate it. comment on what you liked the most please =]
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thanks for the :+fav:
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